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Between a Rock and a Hard Place
I have absolutely nobody to talk to about anything, so I must release my anguish in this blog. I am getting so sick of my parents. I realize that this sounds harsh, but you have absolutely no idea what it is like. Things have only gotten worse.
In my mom's eyes, my dad cannot do anything right. In my dad's eyes, my mom is always up to something What do they do? They come to me and tell me about the problems. I have nobody to tell about these problems, and many of the problems I cannot tell.
I don't know what to do. The pressure is getting to me, and I don't think I can handle this anymore. I am about ready to just leave and let them battle it out for themselves. I don't care if they kill each other, I have to get out of here. There is no if, and's or but's about it.
My mother is quite controlling and overprotective. A deadly combination for anyone. My dad is mentally abusive. I joke, but it is a miracle that I am not a serial killer. Heck, it is only by the grace of God that I have not killed myself, and if they do not stop complaining to me about their problems, I don't know if I will be able to survive.
I have prayed that God will fix my family, and actually make us a family again. However, I don't see that happening any time soon. I haven't lost my faith in God, but I don't know if I can keep up with this. WON'T THEY LEAVE ME ALONE. I DON'T WANT TO HEAR ABOUT THEIR PROBLEMS. I AM TIRED OF IT.
I don't know what to do. I just want to disappear off of the face of the earth.
Comments
On Sat, May 12, 2012 at 10:29 PM, Lilac18 said:
I agree about maybe trying to discuss it (this coming from someone who has taken 36 years to even consider the notion of actually discussing things ;) That said, if there is that much going on, they may or may not listen. The most important thing is that (while you're getting dragged into this) things between them are just that (between them). You need to find your own peace. You can't control how other people act but you can figure out what YOU need to be able to live your life happily. There's a quote I heard recently that I love "you don't have to attend every argument you are invited to". I've reminded myself of it often since I heard it. If people are not treating you the way you expect and deserve to be treated you can remove yourself from the situation to be around people who do. Or even if you can't physically remove yourself from the situation, find a good distraction that makes you happy and keeps you out of it. You don't have to let unhappy people drag you down with them, I know that's tricky when it comes to family but it's still true. You know you can always vent here too, don't ever feel bad about that. Hang in there.
On Sat, May 12, 2012 at 8:47 PM, TinkingJK said:
:( Don't say that you want disappear off the face of the Earth. I think you just need some space from your parents to get yourself together and let them figure out their problems. My parents had similar issues but it was nothing as bad as me wanting to leave the face of the Earth. Just take a breath and get some space :)
On Sat, May 12, 2012 at 7:55 PM, B11685 said:
Next time they come to you, you should explain to them that while you love them both you no longer want to be put in the middle of their arguments. You need to tell them how it makes you feel, say what's on your mind. They need to sit down and talk to each other like adults without getting angry and find out what the root of their problems is. It is unfair to you to be put in the situation to where you're expected to choose sides. You're the child, yet they're acting like one. Let them know that if the nonsense doesn't stop you won't be there for either of them any longer. Maybe suggest they get counseling or come to terms that they need to move on with their lives separately, it may be for the better.